WRITINGS

Inside Out

There I was, sitting on a steel bench, where I could see the full view of the ocean and waves can touch only my toes. I was sitting there looking at the ocean wondering what lay beyond the ocean and inside me.

Slowly cold spread through the bench i was sitting on and the stars started twinkling their eyes and slowly started playing hide and seek behind the clouds. Slowly the moon started shining above my head and I could feel the the breeze on my face growing colder and colder and suddenly the stars and the moon go hide behind the darkening clouds and darkness was surrounding me inside and out. The waves are trying to touch my toes for a long time.

Realising the dark, I stopped wondering what lay beyond and inside and started wondering what’s happening above. The moment I looked up a rain drop thudded on my eyes. The rain started to pouring down harder and harder and I felt the rain drenching my hair and droplets of water dripping from the tip of hair and from the tips of my fingers. I still haven’t moved an inch. I felt that rain was washing away my sins and sorrows.

I waited for the rain to do its job. When it has poured to its contend, it stopped raining. The deafening sounds of rain drops thudding on the water surface has finally stopped. The place was dark and silent but for the gentle and rhyming rhythm of the waves. I felt cleansed of all bad things. I can’t decipher if I am frozen to the cold bench or it was just an impulse. I felt pure. I wanted to leave, but something was still missing. I waited for it to find me, Then slowly, like a kid touching a puppy for the first time, a wave hesitantly touched the tips of my toes and ran away shyly.

I felt overwhelmed by the beauty of god and nature. I stood up turned around and started slowly towards the beach. My feet sinking in the soft beach sand for every step i took.

I reached the streets, it was flooded with light. I went to street surrounding me inside and out. Even though I was drenched and was freezing cold, I felt warmth spreading inside and out, making me glow inside and out.

 

ALL WAS WELL

WRITINGS

Rain

First rain of the year. I got a whiff of the rain that is about to pour down even before it arrived. I was on my evening walk and I smelled the familiar scent of rain wetting the sun scorched land somewhere far away.  So I hurried back home and waited for the first rain of the year with my customary cup of tea and something hot and crunchy to go with it. I sat there in my terrace listening to the rumbling of the clouds and flashes of lightning here and there. Just that little rumbling and the familiar scent of the rain faraway brought back many memories. So I watched the rain finally arrive, thinking of all those years that I have learned to love rain.

I remember those early mornings I used to wake up to the sudden drop in temperature and little water droplets running a race down my window.

I remember those early summer rains that ruined our plan for playing the whole day outside in the best way possible; now we get to make paper boats and conduct paper boat races of our own.

I remember the nights me, my sister and my parents huddled up in one blanket, jumping a foot every time a thunder clap and my dad telling us to recite the name of Arjuna (son of Indian god of thunder) so that he would protect us from the monsterous thunders and we dutifully reciting his name over and over again till his name turns into slurs and we no longer know what we are saying.

I remember school declaring holidays due to heavy rain so we rush back home with a sense of happiness that no Sundays can replace. Those only times watching news anxiously hoping that they would declare holiday the next day.

I remember running to terrace to pick up the clothes that are drying there, only to end up throwing the clothes in a filthy pile in a corner and dancing in the rain, jumping in tiny puddles on the floor. I also remember catching cold and my mom cursing that I never listen to her about anything and worrying that I might catch flu. But all that scolding and even the flu shots are worth it if we get to dance in the rain.

I remember driving up to the river after a big downpour to see if the river has filled up and the dam is full and feeling a familiar sense of happiness because a full dam means  that this years harvest will be good.

As I sit there sipping tea and listening to the steady rhythm of rain now falling, I realise with a tiny pang of jealousy and heart full of pride that the same rain is now helping another little girl create a series of memories that she will one day learn to cherish, just the way I did.

“Pluviophile – Lover of rain. Someone who finds happiness and peace in rainy days.”

WRITINGS

Finally Home

I slammed the door shut behind me. The cruel hot sun burning my skin to the roots. I have places to go, things to do. I got into my mind and started my journey to nowhere. I could feel the hot wind across my face burning my insides. The ride was doing nothing to help. I was driving over the dry vast sand lands, nothing in sight for what it seemed like a million miles. It felt forever on that bike, my mind racing over cruel nothings, not really concentrating on where i am going. There was an unnameable rage in my mind and heart, which made me rage at anything and everything. I know what I am doing, but these questions inside my head are doing nothing to help me realize what exactly is wrong with me. Suddenly I was brought back to reality when a shadow started to hover over me from behind a faraway mountain, shielding me from the cruel sun. I didn’t know how I got there, but something told me to go on and reach out to the cloud. As crazy it might seem, I actually wanted to reach out and grab that cloud, that protected me. I kept riding. the sun was slowly moving away from me and I could see the crescent moon raising in front of me. The cruel hotness is now a little warm, not a pleasant kind, but just plain warm. I finally reached the mountain. For some reason, I got curious to know what was beyond my eyes could reach. The day wearing off and night engulfing the surroundings around me, but the light of the cruel day was still lingering in the far beyond land that I just forsake. It was the last thing I saw before the last traces of the day light died out: The most beautiful sight. It left like the empty world was suddenly filled with things. there was an endless river that was flowing from the foot of the mountain. The trees on the banks of the river and continuing through out the endless range of mountains. the autumn sun has clearly dried the life out of the leaves which were clinging to their branches for their mere lives. I started declining the mountain, till i found a place where I could breathe in the whole scene. I found myself sitting on a rock under a tree, having escaped from the sun, shadowed by the tree all day, which made it cool and welcoming. The transformation the scene made within few minutes was incredible. The dried up leaves constantly rippling the moon’s reflection on the cool river, the river running hurriedly to a faraway land, the crescent moon coming down to the river to fish. Each passing minute, each element of the scene….. I forgot what I was mad about. The rage and the hotness inside me felt like a million years ways. The scene: the dried up leaves finally engulfing their end, the river embracing the leaves’s final moments, the moon shedding its shadow and getting brighter every passing minute, the cool breeze encasing me into surrounding. When I was looking at everything it wasn’t my eyes which is looking at it anymore. It was like my heart, my mind and my body is one and it understood everything going on around me and I finally realise the truth about life. In this dark night, a feeble moonlit ever flowing river, I found what I was looking for and most importantly found myself and I am finally Home.

Home is not a place, it is a feeling.

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The World is still a Beautiful Place

Have you ever wondered that every thing that has been taught to us as kids were nothing but lies?

Being polite will not earn you friends but only ensure that you will be used and treated like a doormat? Getting good grades alone will not guarantee a perfect life? Being kind to strangers won’t make you stronger but more vulnerable for them to cheat you? Love is not exactly something pure, forgiving and everlasting but to there is cheating and manipulation involved? And most of all, growing up doesn’t means your life gets better, but its the other way around?

Also, have any one noticed that as we become parents, we teach our kids the same thing, feed them the same lies? It’s not because we didn’t realize the lie, it’s because we still have hope. Hope that even in this chaos and calamities, there is still beauty in the world. Being polite might earn the smile that they didn’t expect? getting good grades may not give you perfect life, but it might give you opportunities to create your own perfect life? Being kind to a stranger might just make their whole day? Love is not worth it if it isn’t earned?  Life is not about “getting” better but “making” it better?

In my opinion, this is what makes humanity the most beautiful creation of God: Even if we can see only wars and deceit and dishonesty and hate all around us, we never stop having hope, hope that this world can be a beautiful place too, if you know where to look and if you know what to change.

Here is to those who who still believe the world is a beautiful place. I am right there with you.

The most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with heart – Helen Keller.

 

WRITINGS

My crazy world of words

Words always has been a form of escape to me. Those who can paint has always fascinated me. How someone could create a world and people and tell a whole story in a piece of canvas always fascinated me. But I fell head over heals in love with words. In painting one can show how beautiful rain is, but in words, the writer can drench you in rain, as they take you into their world and let you experience their world first hand.

I remember the very first book that swept my soul off its feet and took me to a magical world of owls, flying cars, trolls, dragons, sphinx and all things magical. It was the first book I ever connected with. That book is one of the reason that I started writing and writing liberated me at a very young age like no other.

Sometime, writing helped me go through some difficult times. I could always find my salvation with words: whether it be writing or reading. Words, they always seem to tell me exactly what I wanted to hear. They told me to hold my head high and not give up when I saw no hope; They told me to let go of those who are pulling me down, when I put someone’s happiness before mine; they told me I was not weak to breakdown, but strong enough to pick up the pieces and build myself all over again.

That is why I wanted to write, I want to create worlds that someone would someday find their home in like I once found. I want to create characters that people can relate with, like I connected with my favorite characters. I have been enjoying the wonderful world of words for so long now, by finding friends, exploring new worlds, laughing and crying with my favorite characters and finding a home in so many worlds. Now I have decided to contribute to the the world that has given me so much and I am starting now and starting it here. So wish me luck.

There is no friend as loyal as a book – Ernest Hemingway

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Book addiction 

Books take us to magical places beyond time and reality. The are the best kind of escape one can hope to get. They can take you back in time, into the future, to a neverland, to space, to castles and in the skies and give you opportunity to connect with characters that you never got the opportunity to meet in real life. Some say music is the best creation of mankind, so much as it is true, books are THE best creation of mankind and books are the closest thing humans have to magic.

Books are uniquely portable magic – Stephen King